I know almost every week I have a night where I just want to give up and quit, so this is nothing out of the ordinary, but it's just frustrating to know that for the next 8 months I'm stuck interning at this place I hate. I'm stuck with this sporadic, unpredictable schedule that is entirely dependent on others. I'm barely able to have time for myself right now, I know it will only get worse come January. Most people go home and they relax, when I'm home I'm doing school work. I'm mentally exhausted. I miss my friends. It pisses me off that I'm constantly cancelling things with people because I don't know when I'm interning until the last minute. I have a feeling that soon interning will take over my weekends as well in which case I will have zero time to myself. I wish I was like a normal person that had like an hour of "me time" a day, but I don't really feel like I have much time to myself, except maybe when I watch Real World and Project Runway during the week.
I'm so tired. I'm so burnt out. I'm so sick of having a schedule dependent on other people. I'm so sick of having this chaotic, unpredictable life.
Hi, I wish you would continue blogging. I've just started a similar blog, and it helps to know that there are other people who are also going through stressful periods in life, and how they're dealing with it. I hope you're less stressed about your internship and school, now. Good luck!
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